Tuesday, November 3, 2009
hi everyone
recently alot stuff happened
i took my o levels
everything was going fine til my ss paper
i memoriesed wrongly and i flunked the paper
i just dont get it everythign was going fine til this paper
i sad there stoning at the section B thinking this is where i stop
this is where i as ace stop i came all this way and this is where i fall
where everyone that expected alot from me i failed them heree
i failed the only one htat tried to make me study by saying maybe patch
i on the spot hated myself so much
i came all this way in express just for this day?
no crap i hate it somehow
thanks my church mates and my cca members
but i failed you all sorry
and meiying
sorry i am not worthy of loving you
i still rememmber clearly you said you wanted actions not words
i failed at actions
but i wanna tell you i still love you
i miss you
i am sorry..
if theres a way i could rewind time
i wont want to rewind to the tiimes that me and you were together
you are the perfact girl in my life
ever loved only you
sighhh ever emoing over you is what i always do
i wil be here waiting for you to be back to me
i miss you i still love you 201208 11jan i took alway your first kiss =p
i am always here for you
i love you
my perfact girl
only my love for this life
its suffering i know
but i wanna love you
cause its no reason for me to love someone
rmb this? you told me de
Labels: karkian failed his life and his love
Monday, October 12, 2009
STRESSED BODOH
2more weeks
BUT NOW I GOT ONE MORE NEW goal
that is to win her in l1r5 so maybe we can patch
but i realy streseeddd!!!
i dont want to lose this chance
but i dont thiink i can beat herrr STREESEED
SOMEONE HELP MEEE
Labels: i am still loving you
Monday, October 5, 2009
hiii soo long no blog
yea i know its long
but cause recently alot has been up my mind
not cca chalet (soonweng and weiming arh what trolley mr lee arh think i don know;X)
ok la now i currently skipping school since its a waste of my time to go
last week was basically slack sleep play
but thursday was badminton! with SEN and his church people
my standard is quite high among them
but only the mu shi was strong
but my string snap:(
$23gone again crap la hor
til saturday and sunday was double church i know i am a buddhist
but really the church people really help me to speak less colourful langauges
and stuff
hahaa but last friday was really a crappy day for me
ok la met sen at yishun mrt i was late omg?
than yea trained to amk ate and walk walkkk
really sian who ask us so young travel sooo much already
lol than trained to woodlands wanting to catch a moive
but we were late by 15MINS wthhhh!!!
wanna catch a moive to waste time also cannot crap man
ok la after that sen gtg home prayyy
and ocl called me asking me pei him go back amk again
so i waited his call at woodlands soo i decided to go back to old places where me and her spent time
it was all beautiful memories and i was happy
til i went up to her house the corridor there just hoping to makesure that she still lives there
atfirst i dint saw her shoes there and i was disappointed
but than when i was walking to the lift i saw herr
both of us were shunt
she was still soo beatiful
she changed her hair style
her way of wearing was soo much more mature
i was lost for words as i saw her eyes full of hatred
than after i left that block
i realised the ans of why me and sophia broke and i dint felt sad at all
all this while i was raning away from the fact that i still loved her
i was just telling myself i got to start another relationship
to forget her
sophia was so much like her
the way she talked to my mother ganged with up mother to scold me
she was really the meiying that i wanted
but nothing can replaced the real meiying
the meiying soo wonderful
so perfact always in my hard
meiying if you happen to see this
i erally wanna patch with you
sorry for the past
i really matured
no more childish
after you left
i really studied
from that time all f9
til now
on par with all the top students
6moths 10days since we broke
today ccould have been our 288days of dating
if we had not broken up yet
i miss you dearly
2o12o8
i am still waiting for you...
karkian still loves you meiying
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
times past
people change
even i change
but why cant my feelings for you change?
instead of not loving you
instead of hating you
i am loving you more and more
i really hate this feeling
meiying you pioson me
please give me the antidode
to free me
i love you so
i cant help it
i am just sinking deeper and deeper
recently was teachers day
i went to your pri sch
waiting from 130 til 630
and you dint turn up
i dint waste my time cause it wass for you
my one and only
i dont care
how llonmg must i take
i will wait
til my last breathe i will still say i love you meiying
haha recently not much things happened
anyway happy teachers day to MR ANG MR KELVIN TAN MRS LUI AND MR SKY PHUA
all these teachers are specially wished cause they deserve my respect
thay rock my life up man haha
i will work hard to not let you all down
haha and my friendship with alot of my friends turned for the worst
exp my best of best friend sigh sigh sigh
Friday, July 31, 2009
wee finally here to blog again
recently alot things happened,
i found out i was no longer that confident kid anymore
i was not longer that kid that can really help everyone
why?
cause i cant even protect her
i feel soo useless
i feel soo hopeless
i just wanna end this all by finidng that person?
but she wont like it
i know it
it was for her but she wont like what i did
whats the whole damm point
i hate myself man
shit IT
i rather not have this results
i dont know what the damm shoulld i do
i am still waiting for you.....
Monday, July 13, 2009
hahas i am back to post
alot has happened
but i hope many of it did not
i was dwelling between the gates of hell
yes i am dieing my heart probs are getting on me
one of my friends with a similar heart problem is dead
she was only 14 when she died
it makes me really think why must i llive
she got her family her stead
me?i.. i... got only phoebe and Friends from TOYSyou where not there=(
i only got these and recently i get super jealous
easily over somestuff and over someone
please someone tell me should i dont bite on the pole of livingg
and next time walk inside the gates of hell my self
Friday, July 3, 2009
life has beeen boing as usual and later going meet ocl and ken for pool again
recently my closest frens seem sooo distant to me
i cant really feel them by my side
or was it me?
argh nvm since its likethis
i think i had just start to build an invisble wall all around me
preventing people from entering may this is me
this is KK
maybe this is me without you
3july 2009 Chongkarkian "RIP"
